I haven't been in the mood to write much lately. Jacob turned 6 as I posted in the previous entry. I can't believe he's 6 yrs old. Those who know our story know that Jacob was not a planned pregnancy and a lot of emotional fear. I truly didn't know if I'd love him, because of the heart ache over losing Jordyn so soon, and when he was born oh how instantly I loved him! I'm so thankful every moment he's been with us.
Friday I'll be turning 30. I'm happy to be turning 30. My 20's I have been through more than women twice to three times my age. I got married at 20, had my first baby, Jordyn at 21, Jordyn was dx with AML leukemia by the time I was 22, and I buried my baby at 23, found out I was pg with my 2nd child, 1st son at 23 and days before my 24th birthday. I've been through 4 deployments, 2 being Iraq, and had my 3rd child, 2nd son. I got pg with our 4th child at the age of 29 and will have this precious child at 30!
My 20's have definately had a lot of ups and downs. I look forward to my 30's. I pray I have far more up's than downs. I look forward to one more step in my life. Most likely my husband will retire during my 30's from the Army and we'll start a new chapter (unless he stays in past his 20 yr mark which would be perfectly fine by me!), Jacob will hit his teen years. Now if that's not a new phase of life, I don't know what is?!! LOL
Well, I'm planning on enjoying the last few days of my 20's and plan to enjoy my 30's! Friday my birthday, my friend Michelle is taking me out to lunch, and she's having her son watch the boys (he's done it many times). She home schools her son as well so it's nice to have someone to help out during the day when I need it, of course she's leaving in 2 weeks and I'm going to miss her so much.
Life's been so busy here for me lately and I can handle busy to a degree but if I start to feel overwhelmed I simply don't do well with it. I have a lot on my plate right now, extra stuff. I have of course home schooling Jacob, being a SAHM to Jack, wife, house keeper, and well everything that goes with being a full time wife and mother. We have home school library day on Tuesday's, I have PWOC Wed. mornings, then Wed. Night Alive that evening (bible study). Thursday's are normally my down day, and now Friday's I have the video that goes along with my PWOC class.
In the last couple of weeks I've taken on something else though. I'm the new interim FRG leader for our company. FRG is Family Readiness Group (support group for the families). Our unit is going through a huge transition right now and most of that transitioning will be over in April, so I'll be the FRG leader until April. I was not told a great deal of things I'd be dealing with so in all honesty I'm really aggrevated, and feel like I was lied to. I knew it'd be a great deal of work and I can handle that. What I don't appreciate is things thrown on me at the very last minute (and I mean like two days before something needs to be done, or less!). I'm stressed and overwhelmed. The obvious answer is to step down, but the simple answer is there's literally no one willing to take this on. We've had truly poor attendance and attitude from the spouses and we're (my coleader) trying so hard to get the spouses involved and coming to meetings, do things that they'll enjoy as wives and families.
I just ask for some prayers through April. One a good note, we needed a treasurer my first choice called today and said she'd take the position, there was some reasoning behind why she might not have been able to, but I was thrilled to come home from church and hear she could! So that is truly one less stress on me!!!
Ok, I'm off....