Sunday, May 29, 2005

Weekend Assignment #61

I haven't done one of these before, but thought what the heck! LOL

Weekend Assignment #61: What is the most ridiculous name you've ever given a pet? Because, you know, once you've had a few, all the obvious names are taken, and I think most of us get a little slap-happy. "Ridiculous" could mean an absurd name, or a name in opposition to the pet's physical or character traits (i.e., calling a Great Dane "Tiny"), or something else that just points out that there's something goofy about your pet's title. The pet can be current or former, and -- since these are also a source of amusing names -- if you had a ridiculously named stuffed animal at any point in time, you can include that. Also, if you have a show dog or cat, their "formal" titles certainly belong in the ring.

Extra credit: Well, a picture of said ridiculously-named pet would be nice.


Well that would be easy. When I was in high school we got a puppy from family friends and her name was Kitty! Officially on the papers her name was Miss Kitty, because we live in Kansas and my parents love Westerns @@ lol. Kitty actually died about a month or 2 ago, so it feels like someone is missing when I got to my parents now. I will have to look and see if I have any pictures of her somewhere,.

So that's our "weird" ainimals name.. a dog named Kitty!

Easy Like Sunday Morning #8

Easy - Week # 8

EASY - like Sunday Morning!

Here's my question of the week.  Answer it in your journal and come back here and leave me a link in the comments.  I'll post your links on Saturday and we'll start over again next week :-)

Tell me......

"Camping - tent or camper? or Hotel?"


I would say tent or camper. I don't mind a night or even 2 in a tent, but I really want an air mattress in that tent! LOL A camper would be great, but we don't own one and most of our friends when they camp do tent camping. I love a warm fire, friends to sit and talk to, a clear star-filled night.

When I was younger, my grandpa had a camper that we would take out to the lake and camp in, and sleeping in the a/c was definately a perk, but it's not a must. The older I get the more allergies I get, but normally if I take some meds and stay on top of them I'm fine. Jacob has allergies, and on Thursday Daddy is taking him to the dr since I'll be out of town, to hopefully get him on some stronger meds than benedryl, since that's not cutting it. But I think even if he was completely miserable he'd still rather camp out! LOL

I'm hoping to go camping before we leave for Germany. I know we'll go camping once we move over to Germany. We need to get a nice tent. The last time we went camping was when Jordyn was at Walter Reed and our support group PCFC (Parents and Children Fighting Cancer) went camping in Pa. It was so  much fun, all the kids went to bed and most of us adults sat up around the campfire just talking and laughing and eating smores! LOL

See this has really given me the bug to go camping! LOL Thanks Kelly! haha!

I'm an Emotional Girl

I am emotional, I've always been emotional, but since I had Jackson, I've been on a roller coaster that's just out of control. All you women know the ups and downs we go through, it's just part of being a woman, but it's just to the extreme anymore, and every month I think I get a little worse.

I am having some physical problems that show up every month and it's rediculous and makes life just really unenjoyable. Then there's my crazy mood swings. I'll share tonights with you. We needed to run to WalMart to get a few items, but we had to run by the barrack's before that to drop off some chili I made for dinner to one of the single soldiers. As Chad is walking out of the barrack's, he was talking to a soldier who was about to get into his car. I asked him what he was talking to him about, this soldier..who was 19, had hard alcohol and was taking it over to a married of age soldier. Chad told him that because it was an open bottle he needed to put it in his trunk. I disagreed and thought Chad should be the responsible NCO that he normally is and should have taken the bottle and dumped it down the drain.

I felt my heart starting to pound and just race faster and faster. Part of me is angry because I think that as an NCO he must take care of his soldiers and just prevent them the best HE can from them being stupid, and as a Christian man I feel he should be sharing his love of Christ and show all those around him God's love and will, and getting drunk is not personifying Christ's love and will. At least from my understanding. my highly emotional, hormonal self I just told him to take me home before he headed for WM.

He's home already and I'm calmer, but still disappointed that he didn't do what I feel in my heart was the right thing. So I'm just praying. I'm not going to fight with him or yell at him, etc. Just going to give it over to God and let him set it in Chad's heart, HIS will, not mine!

That's a hard pill to swallow.

Saturday, May 28, 2005

Can't Sleep

I can't sleep, so what am I doing..still online. I'm not even tired, and that's a big problem. It's 3 am! UGH! Well I've been doing good. Check out my weight loss journal, to see how good I'm doing in that dept! :)

Today (well ok it's yesterday really) we had our friends 4 little boys over, while Mom and Dad went out on a Date!!! They went to dinner, ran some errands, and a movie. I'm glad we were able to do this for them. They've watched our boys quite a few times and anytime I needed Teddi Jo to watch the boys or one of them for me, she will, just like that. I love her boys, they're precious, well behaved little boys. The ages are crazy! LOL 5, 4,4, and 2 1/2 and no the 4 yr olds are not twins, they adopted one from TJ's sister's little boy. Her sister found out she was pg and couldn't keep him, so she asked them if they'd adopt him, they said yes, even though Teddi Jo was pregnant and actually due 2 wks before her sister! Her sister had M, on Teddi Jo's due date, and Teddi Jo gave birth on M's dd. When her sister went into labor, Ryan flew there and was there for the birth, and brought him home a day or 2 later, and Teddi Jo was able to start nursing him immediately! She was able to tandem nurse the boys once they were both there! (tandem nursing means nursing more than 1 at a time) She amazes me. She's a great mom, very calm, patient, loving, and gentle with her children. She and I both plan to homeschool our children. We're different because she LOVES to clean! Well, anyone who really knows me, knows I'd rather do anything but! LOL

Anyways, we had a housefull tonight! We had 6 boys 5 yrs and younger, 3 of them being 4! LOL!!! It was great though! The boys were all behaved and it was just a fun evening. We BBQ Hambugars and hotdogs, the kids ate great. I then made my Great Grandma's Applesauce Raisin cookies. I don't know how many points they are, but they're delicious! I sent some home with Teddi Jo, so that I wouldn't be tempted to eat them all. Thankfully the boys love them, unfortunately Chad doesn't, because he doesn't like raisins baked in things! (ugh!) lol That's ok though, because he needs to lose weight too! LOL

Anyways, it was busy, but fun night in our house. Tomorrow (well actually today), we're going to their house for dinner, we're going to BBQ again! ROFL! It'll be fun though. Nothing like good food with great company.


Monday, May 23, 2005

Easy Like Sunday Morning-WK 7

In my opinion, and Yes I have an opinion on EVERYTHING Easy - Week #7

EASY - like Sunday Morning!

Here's my question of the week.  Answer it in your journal and come back here and leave me a link in the comments.  I'll post your links on Saturday and we'll start over again next week :-)

Tell me......

"What is your favorite way to spend a rainy day?"


Ah another good one from Kelly! Well if it's just me all alone, I prefer to nap off and on all day and read, and maybe find something good on tv or if I'm in a really odd mood pop in a movie.

If it's a normal day and I have the  boys with me. I love to color with the kids! It's one of the really good memories I have from my childhood, my mom coloring with my brother and I, all of us laying on the floor sharing the crayons, coloring our pictures. I like to read to the boys, well ok that doesn't exactly count we read everyday, but well all that cuddling just fits in on a rainy day. We usually will watch a movie of their choice (ok mostly it's Jacob's choice! LOL), play in the play room. If/when Jackson's napping Jacob and I will sometimes play a game of his choice. If the boys watch a movie, they have to have popcorn too.

If any of you read this, go to your journals and tell us what you do on a rainy day and leave your link in Kelly's journal: In my opinion, and Yes I have an opinion on EVERYTHING 

Saturday, May 21, 2005

Soul Searching: What is my purpose

I've been doing a lot of soul searching today. I have given my heart to Jesus, yet do I walk in his footsteps or allow him to carry me through the many rough spots that come my way? Not often or at least not often enough. What do I do instead? I'm hurtful, bitter, angry, judgemental, easy to jump on others, critize others, and just over all look down my nose at others.

Do I do anything right? I believe so. I never sway away from my beliefs in Jesus Christ as my savior and I truly ache for those who do not know him and the truth. I don't pursue beliefs that go against what GOD commands us such as wican, budist, etc. I believe in the one and only God, Jesus Christ, our Savior.

I'm doing my best to raise my children up in Christ's love. I give disipline and set boundaries, yet let them be who God has made them to be. I'm not a mom who just rolls over and lets her kids do what ever, yet I don't have an iron fist. I realize that as a mom I will and do make mistakes, many of them, yet at the core of it, I'm the adult they are the child. I don't NEED to by my child's best friend, I need to be their parent.

I'm a good friend. I love my friends with all my heart. I will ache with them, love them, laugh with them, cry with them, and fight for them. I may not have 50 close friends, but I do have a handful of AMAZING ones who I wouldn't trade for the world and who know that I love them and know I'm here for them day or night.

I love my husband. He may get on my nerves, hurt my feelings, I may not be the best "housewife", yet he knows when we're expecting company he can count on the house to appear to be nice and orderly (rofl, it's not, but it appears that way! LOL). I cook for my family, wash their clothes, kiss, and hug them, and say that I love them every single day normally on average (and yes a couple times I've counted how many times out of well curiosity and maybe a little boredom!ROFL) 20 times a day to each person in our home! My husband knows that as crazy as I get, I'm here and not going anywhere. I'm here for the long haul.

So with all those good things, even with the negatives thrown in there what is my purpose? Do I know what GOD wants me to be doing right now? I feel in my heart I do. I'm a mom and a wife and a friend. Most importantly I'm a child of God. I will continue to make mistakes, yet as long as I'm willing to learn from them, then I feel in my heart I'd doing as God wants me to do. He knows I'm going to mess up and even fall flat on my face. Oh how unworthy I am, how unworthy all of us are. Yet here we are, here I am. HE gives me grace everyday, he gives me his love. He's allowed to be bring 3 beautiful children into this world. He holds one of them in his arms right there in Heaven with him, and how blessed I am to know she's safe with him. I never have to worry if she's being hurt.

So what is my purpose? To be me, Christy. To be the child of Jesus Christ. To be the wife to Chad, the mother to Jordyn, Jacob, and Jack. To be a friend, and to be kind to even those who are not my friends. I struggle at times with that last one, so the last thing I feel I'm supposed to do/be is to constantly be growing and learning, to be bettering myself all for GOD's glory. That's my purpose and well I just came to that realization as I wrote this all out. :)



What Prayer Is

This really goes along with the last entry I made.


What Prayer Is.....

Prayer is coming into the presence of God...
Prayer is entering to the throne room of the King of kings and Lord of lords....
Prayer is taking our concerns to the One who cares for us...
Prayer is standing on holy ground...
Prayer is communicating with the Creator of the world...(the One who spoke this world into existence with a word...mountains, oceans, star...)
Prayer is a child talking to his Father...
Prayer is bringing our hurts to the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort...
Prayer is reaching out to our Redeemer...
Prayer is crying out to the Rock that is higher than we are...
Prayer is calling out the only One who can save us...
Prayer is touching the One who loves us with an unfailing & unquenchable love...
Prayer is binging our questions to the One who has the answers...
Prayer is reaching our the NEVER; tired, confused, afraid or taken by surprise God...
Prayer is connecting our lives with the ALL knowing, all present-and ALL present- and ALL powerful King of kings...
Prayer is coming near to God...

36 Christian Ways to Reduce Stress

I'm going to start doing these things everyday. I've had a very stressful day, much my own causing, in the stupid online world of aol boards, etc. I let my fingers get the best of me, no more.


Check out this site, it's got some GREAT idea's and they're things I'm going to be putting into practise!

Raindrop Reflections

God Bless

Friday, May 20, 2005

It Makes No Sense

I'm not going to mention a name tonight in my journal, but just have to write.

I have a wonderful friend who's going through a hard time right now with her parents. She's a grown woman, has children, and a husband, yet her parents still think they can tell her how to live.

Last yr I had a huge blow up with my parents and didn't talk to them for 6 months. Even though things are now, ok, they will never be the same. I love my parents, but I just could never trust them the way I did before that happened. This all happened right after Chad went to Iraq, so pretty well the worst time possible.

As I talked to my friend today and she shared the conversation my heart ached as the words her parents were telling her, were words mine said to me. I don't think it matters how old we are, whether it's 1, 21, 41, or 61 we want and need to know our parents love us and want us in their lives and not just our children who made or helped make them grandparents. To feel like your parents don't love you, is awful and crushes your heart unlike anything.

For me, at the time, as hard as it all was, it was a relief to not have the constant heartache and break on a daily, weekly, monthly basis. I know nothing I can do can ease my friends heart right now. I know the best thing I can do is be there for her, love her, and pray for her.

I know there are some people who are so over whelmingly blessed to have a good and even great relationship with their mom/parents. I wish so much we all could have good relationships, but it just doesn't happen that way everytime.


To my friend, I love you. You're a gentle, kind, loving, and GOD FEARING woman. I'm honored to be your friend.


Tuesday, May 17, 2005

Got to give a PIMP!!

Well my dear friend Kelly made the "front page" so to speak:


AOL People Connection: Journals


Scroll down to "Weekend Assignment" that hottie you see there with the older man, is my dear friend Kelly a "few" years back! ROFL! I DO know how many years ago it is, so YOU Miss Kelly  better be nice to me! HA! Anyways, give it a look and make sure you go to Kelly's journal: Kelly, she's a wonderful writer and well she's a great friend and over all wonderful person. (Ok, I think that hundred bucks you paid me to talk you up is gone LOL).

Love ya girl and WTG!


1) Are you more leather and lace or cotton and denim? Cotton and denim

2) If you could be any animal, what would it be? Cat, so I could lay around, brush people off when I didn't feel like being around them, cuddle up in those who I loves lap when I need some love.

3) Do you make friends easily? I'm inbetween, I make acquantances easily, but have found the older I get, the less I give away my friendship to just anyone.
4) Who is the last person you talked to on the phone?

Chad, although it was for a second..actual converstation was Emily.

5) When was the last time someone did something to surprise you? Today, the boys surprise me constantly with the things they come up with to do. Never, EVER understimate a 4 yr old and a 20 month old! LOL

6) Does your love life make you happy? yes
7) Are you content with your job? love it: SAHM!
8) What’s your most embarrassing moment? I'll have to think about that one.

9) What would your dream home be like? 2 story victorian house, with large bedrooms, no less than 5 bedrooms, wrap around porch, a large backyard, a finished basement, lots of flowers in the front of the house, with beautiful flowers that are planted all around the porch, a beautiful fence in the front doesn't HAVE to be a pickett fence. Although it'd be a big house, we would want it to feel nice and homey. 2nd most  important for me for our "dream house" is that even after the kids move away, get married, have their own families that they ALL (wives, children, etc) feel like they're coming HOME when they come back for visits. The most important is that God's love fills our home!

10) How do you handle rejection? not well! ;)

11) Any fetishes? (Sexual or otherwise)? um, other than ME enjoying it, no!

12) What are your children’s middle names? Ashleigh, Kindrick,Thomas

13) What’s hanging above your bed? nothing
14) Who’s tush would you willingly kick for free? rofl, oh there's a couple of people and I'll just leave it nameless
15) Are you daring or cautious? cautious for the most part
16) Have you ever had unprotected sex? umm, I have 3 children! lol
17) What year were you born? 1977
18) Do you own sexy underwear? yes sometimes

19) Is your hair short or long? neither! it hits just past my shoulders

20) Ever been convicted of a crime? no
21) Of your fellow journalers, who will be least likely to repost this? Emily
22) Do you like your boss? My only true boss is GOD, so I love him.

23) How often do you clean your house? ROFL! You people don't know me!! I do my BEST cleaning last minute! LOL

24) Do you have any pets? yes 2 dogs, 1 cat, and tank full of fish.
25) Do you have a nickname?Hon, Mom, Mommy, Mamma, "Jacob/Jackson's mom" (I have to say that last one I just LOVE! LOL)

Monday, May 16, 2005

Things you've done

The object is simple, put an x next to the things you've done:

(X) smoked a cigarette (Yes I'm horrified that I was a stupid college freshman, for a week)
( ) smoked a cigar
( ) made out with a member of the same sex
(X) been in love
(X) been dumped
( ) stolen
(X ) been fired
(X) been in a fight
(X) snuck out of my parent's house
(X ) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
( ) been arrested
(X) made out with a stranger (what drunk stupid single girl hasn't?)
(X) gone on a blind date
(X) lied to a friend
( ) had a crush on a teacher
(X) skipped school
(X) slept with a coworker
(X) seen someone die (my baby girl)
( ) had a crush on one of your blogging friends
( ) been to Canada
( ) been to Mexico
(X) been on a plane
(X) thrown up in a bar (oh yeah, that's a hard one to imagine..a person in a bar, getting sick)
( ) purposely set a part of myself on fire
( ) eaten Sushi
( ) been snowboarding
(X) met someone in person from the blogosphere (ok so I knew her already, but Kelly LOL)
( ) been hxc dancing at a show (what is this?)

(X) been in an abusive relationship
(X) taken painkillers (3 c-sections do I need to say more?)
(X) love someone or miss someone right now
(X) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(X) made a snow angel
(X) had a tea party

(X) flown a kite
(X) built a sand castle
(X) gone puddle jumping
(X) played dress up
(X) jumped into a pile of leaves
(X) gone sledding
(X) cheated while playing a game
(X) been lonely
(X) fallen asleep at work/school
( ) used a fake id
(X) watched the sun set
( ) felt an earthquake
( ) touched a snake
(X) slept beneath the stars
(X) been tickled
( ) been robbed
(X) been misunderstood
( ) pet a reindeer/goat
(X) won a contest
(X) run a red light
( ) been suspended from school
(X)been in a car accident
(X) had braces
(X) felt like an outcast
(X) eaten awhole pint of ice cream
in one night
(X) had deja vu
(X) danced in the moonlight
(X) hated the way you look
(X) witnessed a crime
( ) pole danced
(X) questioned your heart
( ) been obsessed with post-it notes
(X) squished barefoot through the mud
(X) been lost
(X) been to the opposite side of the country
(X) swam in the ocean
(X) felt like dying
(X) cried yourself to sleep
(X) played cops and robbers
(X) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(X) sung karaoke
(X) paid for something with only coins
(X) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(X) made prank phone calls
(X) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(X) caught a snowflake on your tongue
(X) danced in the rain
(X) written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
(X) watched the sun set with someone you care about
(X) blown bubbles
(X) made a bonfire
(X) crashed a party
(X) gone rollerskating

(X) had a wish come true
( ) humped a monkey...ewwwww
() worn pearls
( ) jumped off a bridge
( ) screamed penis in class
(X)ate dog or cat food

(x) told a complete stranger you loved them
(X) kissed a mirror
(X) sang in the shower
( ) have a little black dress
         (yeah, when you're my size no dress is little that I can fit into! _)                                                                                      

(X) had a dream that you married someone
( ) glued your hand to something
( ) gotyour tongue stuck to a
( ) kissed a fish

(X)worn the opposite sexes clothes                                                                                    

(X) been a cheerleader
(X) sat on a roof top
(X) screamed at the top of your lungs
( ) done a one-handed cartwheel...can't do a 2 hand cartwheel lol
(x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(X) stayed up all night
(X) didn't take a shower for a week

(X ) pick and ate an apple right off the tree
(X) climbed a tree
( ) had a tree house
( ) are too scared to watch scary movies alone
() believe in ghosts-spirital

Easy Like Sunday Morning

EASY - like Sunday Morning!

Here's my question of the week.  Answer it in your journal and come back here and leave me a link in the comments.  I'll post your links on Saturday and we'll start over again next week :-)

Tell me......

"Do you have a favorite 'comfort food'......extra points if you share a recipe!"


My favorite stroganoff! Here's the recipe! Let me know if you try it!

1 lb ground beef

1/4 cup quick oats

1 egg

2 Tbsp Ketchup

1 Tbsp minced onions

1/2 tsp salt

1 (12 oz) pkg Reame Egg noodles (I honestly prefer the reames, they do taste better, but you can use reg. egg noodles or home made noodles taste great too)

1 T margerine or butter

1 T parsley (optional)

1 (10-3/4 oz) can of cream of mushroom soup (do NOT use fat free or less fat, it effects the taste and not in a good way)

1/2 cup of sour cream (again do not use reduced or fat free for same reason as above)

1/2 c milk

1-1/2 tsp paprika (optional)

Meatballs: Preheat over on 450 degree's: Combine beef, oats, egg, kethcup, onion, and salt;mix thoroughly. Shape into balls, and bake for 8-10 minutes (can take longer)

Noodles: Cook uncovered in boiling water, drain. Melt butter, add noodles and parsley, and toss. Cover and keep warm

Sauce: Combine soup and sour cream, heat slowly, slowly stir in milk and paprika.

***Can stir in meatballs to sauce.

Serve over meatballs.


I just got off with a friend, who'll remain nameless, she knows who she is! ROFL

Make sure to cook the meatballs in a cake/baking dish! Do NOT use a cookie sheet! ROFL!

Sunday, May 15, 2005

Garage Sale anyone?

Well Chad finally got a clue Friday night, and came out and helped me. We finally came inside about 3 or a little after. Chad was up at 6:30 to go set up the signs and start putting together the chefron that he was too tired to put together Friday night. I was up at 7, got the boys dressed and fed, and was outside before 8. We did not have a lot of people come back, which stinks but I'm thinking because there was a carnaval in the PX parking lot and since I had to run up there and saw that about everyone from post was there, that must have been where MY buyers were! LOL

We got some sold though and made a decent amount of money so it wasn't a waste. Next Friday and Saturday we're going to do it again, so hopefully we can get the rest of it sold or at least enough that when I call GoodWill or Salvation Army they won't need their "BIG" truck! LOL

Our friends Teddi Jo and Ryan took the boys for us and Chad and I went out to dinner  to a small Italian resturant that we have both wanted to try, it was very good!THEN, we went to a movie. We went and saw Monster-In-Law. Now let me put it out there, I can't STAND Jennifer Lopez or Jane Fonda, so the fact that I helped either of their bank accounts go up just irks me beyond belief. On the other hand Michael Vartan and Wanda Sykes in it. Well Mr. Michael and just yummy and I will mention there's a great scene of him running on the beach shirtless! THANK YOU to the writer on that scene! LOL Wanda Sykes was HILLIARIOUS! IMO she stole the show! Even though I can't stand the 2 "headliners" of the movie, it was still VERY funny. I did enjoy myself though and there seems to be some good movies coming out soon.

We got the  boys and were home by 10:30 and we both crashed. I woke to allergies back up high, with the sinus's acting up and a splitting headache. We went to Sunday School, and then I had nursery during the service. Chad had to be at work this morning at 8:45 (no church for him unfortunately), because the rest of his company is going out to the field today, I took him lunch, and he should be home soon. I'm ready for a nap, of course I know if I take one now I'll be up all night long, and since I am up half the night the way it is, I'm going to suffer through it!


Friday, May 13, 2005

Somebody take me away

Ok seriously if I could just escape right now I would. I am so frustrated once again with Chad that I could just explode. We're having a garage sale tomorrow "maybe". Because my "wonderful" husband will not help me with ANYTHING. We have items that are very heavy, things I can't reach in the storage shed, because "Mr. Wonderful" placed them in extremely odd places, so to get them everything would fall on me. I'm just furious.

Say a pray tonight that I don't beat him with something hard.

And to think I had sex with him today. Ha he better not even think of asking for anymore for a VERYYYYYYYYYY VERYYYYYYYY LOOOOOOONG time.

Thursday, May 12, 2005

Hubby not so bad!

Well I never came back on Monday night to retract that dh isn't so bad! LOL We went out side and talked for quite a while. It was really needed and good. We talked about our friends, whose little boy, Logan died last Friday.

We discussed adoption, which we both feel is something we are supposed to do. I don't know when, but it's without a doubt a gift we're doing for ourselves and for a a child.

Saturday we're having a garage sale, then we have a playgroup luncheon, then friends of ours are going to watch the boys while we have some much needed alone time. I'm looking forward to being able to sit down and talk. I honestly do not want to go see a movie, dinner would be nice, but I think after that we need to go to a park, lake, or just home so we can talk.

Well, that's about it in my boring life!


Tuesday, May 10, 2005

AH! Husbands

Ok frustration has hit me hard right now. It's been an overall good day. Hot here in Kansas. We hit 93 today, so we were all pretty well sweating bullets. I got my walking in, ate ok. Chad called to say that he was working late. The day had been good so far, and the boys were never bad, just lots of energy. We spent almost all our day outside, well ok Jacob had preschool for 3 hrs this afternoon, but we were outside from a little before 9 am we stayed outside until we came inside Jacob changed his shoes, got his book bag, then he hopped on his bike and Jack got into the stroller and off we were to walk to school, Jack and I walked home and he fell asleep on the way back.

It was a good afternoon, the boys and I played outside some more, they had dinner, and we came inside and more play! Daddy came home about 8 tonight, the boys were yelling and just carrying on. I was feeling the exhaustion of spending all day outside, good day yes, still tiring when you're running around playing with 2 little boys, along with trying to get the house clean, not exactly a small feat, I did get 4 loads of laundry done as well!

Chad asked me what was wrong, as I finally sat down with no child climbing on me or wanting me, and just that feeling of exhaustion hits you. I told him I was tired so he does his normal "I'll trade you any day your day for mine". I swear I just want to ring the man's neck. I don't play "who's got it harder" game, and it infuriates me when he does. So here I am just wanting to scream, but yeah as if I could do that, because then he'd probably find a reason to say why he deserves to scream more.


Ok so he just came in and apologized...did the world stop turning or is this man finally starting to grow?????


So if you have any vents, share them! LOL

Sunday, May 8, 2005

Remembering Jordyn on Mother's Day


Today was one of those bittersweet days for me. Five years ago today, my sweet angel girl, Jordyn flew home to Heaven. Yes and it's also Mother's Day. Yeah...already a holiday that's so bittersweet and it's my daughter's Heaven anniversary.   I woke up this morning to Jackson wanting me, to of course nurse, soon after Jacob came tumbling into the room announcing "Happy  Mother's Day, Mommy". My eyes filled with tears as he jumped into bed between Chad and I, knowing we SHOULD have 1 more with us, wishing me a Happy Mother's Day.   We got up, Chad made breakfast. Chad made biscuits and gravy, my favorite breakfast, then we got dressed for church. This morning I braved it up and sang for the first time a solo at church. The song: Held by Natalie Grant.   Two months is too little They let him go They had no sudden healing To think that providence Would take a child from his mother While she prayers, is appalling   Who told us we'd be rescued What has changed and Why should we be saved from nightmares We're asking why this happens to us Who have died to live, it's unfair.   This is what it means to be held How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life And you survive This is what it is, to be loved and to know That the promise was when everything fell We'd be held   This hand is bitterness We want to taste it and Let the hatred numb our sorrows The wise hand opens slowly To lilies of the valley and tomorrow   This is what it means to be held How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life And you survive This is what it is to be loved and to know That the promise was when everything fell We'd be held   If hope is born of suffering If this is the only beginning Can we not wait, for one hour Watching for our Savior   This is what it means to be held How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life And you survive This is what it is to be loved and to know That the promise was when everything fell We'd be held   Repeat chorus     I actually got through the song without breaking down. I prayed so much before I got up there to sing, that God would just keep my voice steady.   After church we drove the 90 minutes to my parents and then we went to the cemetary. We bought some flowers to plant in front of Jordyn's headstone. I should have taken pictures but just didn't think about it. The flowers looked beautiful and we left a hanging basket, behind her stone actually because storms were coming and didn't want the basket to fall from her shephard's hook. The basket had of course Jordyn's favorite purple penuntia's, some beautiful yellow flowers that had a hint of purple in the center, and some other flowers, it was a very full and just gorgous basket.   Chad had went to throw away the plant pots and Jacob and I sang "You are my sunshine" aka Jordyn's song, twice, then he started to cry. I asked him what was wrong and he said he was sad. I asked him why, and he said he was sad that Jordyn had cancer, that she was just a little girl and she shouldn't have had cancer. Wise words from a 4 yr old. We stayed there holding each other crying and hugging.   We came home, and Chad made me dinner, my favorite stroganoff (I definately did not stay in my points today, but I'll stay on top of them the rest of the week). I put Jackson to bed, then Jacob went to bed. It's been peaceful night.   I miss my girl. I wish so much she was here. I wish I could love Mother's Day as other mom's did. I wish it weren't such a bittersweet holiday for me. Yet it is. I got through the day, and well for right now I think, whew.   I praise God that I had my daughter for the time I even did. Those 2 yrs 1 month and 8 days are more precious to me than any words could ever describe. How anyone gets through these kind of days without Jesus, I just don't know. There's no way I could though.   God Bless Christy  


Tuesday, May 3, 2005


Please stop by Kelly journal today. Her precious boy went home to Heaven 5 yrs ago today. She's a wonderful loving person and her beautiful boy was amazing.She has a link on her journal about her son, Joshua, take a look!


I love you Kelly

Monday, May 2, 2005

Memorial Services

Today, well ugh it's officially yesterday because it's not past midnight, anyways..we attended another memorial service for another fallen soldier we knew.

I didn't know him as well, but Chad loved this man, respected him as a soldier, leader, friend, father, and husband. He was 39, a 1st Sgt., and when he returned from Iraq (2nd tour), he was then going to retire. He had a wife and daughter.

It was of course full of tears. It was the first time I ever attended a Military Memorial service with Chad. It was hard. To sit there as my husband cried. I could feel him begin to shake, trying to control himself, yet so visably struggling. Chad's one of brave, strong men who's not afraid to show his feelings, tears and all.

We were able to see some friends who we haven't seen in quite a while. His old Co who was here when we moved back here, his old 1st Sgt who also was his 1st Sgt from when we moved back, and some other friends who came in just for the memorial service. Two of the guys who came in, had bought a couple disposable camera's, and we happened to have my camera's in the van so I got my digital and got some pictures of the guys all together. From Chad's 1st  EVER Sgt.Major to his favorite PLT Sgt who went to another Company a few months ago and has been severely missed as Chad's leader since. I took those pictures and thought, what a precious gift we will have now. A group of men who gathered to say goodbye to their friend, comrad, leader, etc.

These men have lost 10 very important soldiers in their lives. My heart aches for them. Some have their own horrors in their mind of what they experienced. Some have guilt for not (yet) being to this war, some have guilt for even making it home alive, while they had to carry their brother's bodies ( sadly some it was less than a whole body) off the battle field. They are our brave men. I'm proud to know them and love them. I'm proud to be married to one of them.

Tomorrow I'll download the pictures and post one on here, so you can also see a few of these brave men.

Sunday, May 1, 2005

I got tagged! Laura tagged me.. now I have to answer 5 questions out of these below. Then I pick 3 different people and tag them!! So beware my might be it. Enjoy!

The "questions":

 If I could be a scientist... Find a cure for Childhood cancer, I think that's obvious for me

If I could be a farmer...
If I could be a musician...

If I could be a doctor...

If I could be a painter...
If I could be a gardener...

If I could be a missionary...I'd love to do this and have felt the last 6 months God's calling us to spread his word, I just don't know how exactly or where. I try to share my faith with as many people as I can though.

If I could be a chef...
If I could be an architect..

If I could be a linguist...

If I could be a psychologist...

If I could be a librarian...I'd love to work with the little children, start the love of reading young and they'll love reading for a lifetime!

If I could be an athlete...I'd throw shot put again, I loved throwing and miss it.

If I could be a lawyer...

If I could be an inn-keeper...

If I could be a professor...

If I could be a writer...I'd write Jordyn's story and spread her story to even more (and hopefully raiseawareness and seriously I love sharing her beautiful face and story).
If I could be a llama-rider...

If I could be a bonnie pirate...

If I could be an astronaut...

If I could be a world famous blogger..

If I could be a justice on any one court in the

If I could be married to any current famous political figure.

Kelly's Easy Question of the week

Easy - Week #4

EASY - like Sunday Morning!

Here's my question of the week.  Answer it in your journal and come back here and leave me a link in the comments.  I'll post your links on Saturday and we'll start over again next week :-)

Tell me......

"Do you have a cell phone?  How many does  your family have?  How often do you use it/them?"


Yes we have a cell phone. We did have 2, until Chad broke the antena off of his, and it just wasn't worth replacing it since we're moving to Germany soon anyways! So we just have mine now. It's a picture camera and I love it. It's used everyday. Chad takes it to work with him everyday, so I can get ahold of him if I need to (how did we live before them! ROFL), but it's MY phone!