I am sitting here just missing my daughter tonight. Wondering how someone I love so much was able to leave my arms. I am just aching right now. I hear so many other mom's talking about their daughter's, the pinks, purples, ribbons, long hair, painted fingernails..I miss those things, most of all though I just miss Jordyn.
All too often people think that tomorrow is somehow guarenteed. I find myself falling into that at times, but I know all too well it's not promised. I know that life's not always easy and gentle. I know that even little innocent children suffer from horrible diseases, that they truly do not deserve. I know that one of, if not the most evil word I know is cancer. I know it killed this beautiful child. It robbed her of growing up to become what ever she was supposed to be. It robbed me, yes selfish me, of being her Mommy and guiding her through out her life. It robbed my husband of his little girl, his princess. It robbed my boys of having a big sister.
I hate cancer. I miss that smile, her laughter, that light in her eyes. I've never seen another human that had a light in their eyes like Jordyn did.