Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Feeling a little better

Well, I'm not fully recovered, but I'm not feeling the need to be in the bathroom all the time or just laying on the couch feeling like my stomach was going to explode. The boys definately watched too much tv yesterday morning, that's a definate perk for them when Mommy's sick and just too exhausted to do anything with them. Thankfully Chad was home by 1 yesterday afternoon. I did have to make them lunch, which I went above and beyond on...ravioli's rofl!! yeah..open the can, dump, heat up, serve...lol....I got them put in bed for their nap, spent some quality time in my bathroom, Chad came home and got the boys to stop rough-housing (imagine a 2 and 4 yr old rough-housing knowing full and well Mommy was ummm busy! LOL)

Ok, so my real purpose of writing this...how much fun my boys are, especially Jack at this moment. His imagination is really exploding onto the scene you could say! Like I said he's 2 and this is when it really hits. Last night he found the blocks, and made something...well it was a train! :) He started walking around saying "choo-choo" he did this for at least a half-hour! It was so fun watching his imagination really going. This morning the boys were playing, Jacob went and got his Bob the Builder blanket that my mom had made him, got the couch pillows, put everything on the floor, Jacob layed under his blanket, layed on one of the pillows and said "come here puppy", Jack came over barking, tongue hanging out, being a puppy! ROFL! They were playing and giggling. It's so much fun to watch 1. my children play together. 2. love one another, 3 to see their imagination growing and constantly expanding.

I know how lucky I am, when I talk to some friends who's kids are about the same age gap and they don't play as well together. People always seem a little shocked that they get along so well with each other. They are truly best friends. If Jacob is out of Jack's sight and he doesn't know where he is, he comes to ask where "baabup" (that's how he says Jacob) is and will then proceed to walk through the apt calling his name! LOL If Jack's somewhere unknown to Jacob, he's searching for him. Now don't get me wrong, the argue and have little tiff's, but normally with in 1 minute they are back to playing like nothing again!

I love watching my boys play together, I think it's one of GOD's greatest gift to give your child a sibling. It was wonderful when it was JUST Jordyn (ok so it was wonderful just having Jordyn alive...) and it was wonderful when it was JUST Jacob. I had no idea how wonderful it would be to see Jacob be a big brother. He was meant to have siblings. Last night he came up to me and said "mommy, I miss Jordyn". Now for those new here or just don't know, I found out I was pregnant with Jacob 8 days AFTER Jordyn died. He was NOT planned by any means and the pregnancy was emotionally hard, well it was awful. I'd NEVER and I mean NEVER suggest anyone get pregnant in the first year after losing a child. You NEED time to grieve. Letting yourself be selfish, etc. That was not the case for me, there I was pregnant. My husband and I were shocked to say the least. I wanted my little girl, wasn't ready for another child. The whole pregnancy I was scared out of my mind that I wouldn't be able to love him. When he was born and I heard that cry, all those fears left, because it was immediate, I loved that child! Anyways, I believe with all my heart that Jacob has a bond with his sister, it's unexplainable really, but so many times he's talked about Jordyn, misses her, wants her here with him, and genuinely loves her. I know they knew each other in Heaven while he was growing in me. Jack is starting to learn and recognize Jordyn, most the time when he see's her picture he calls her Jacob (of course when he see's himself in the mirror or a picture of himself he calls himself Jacob too! LOL)...but when I correct him and tell him "No, that's Jordyn not Jacob" he will say "oh! Jordyn" and normally gives the picture a kiss! :) I'm thankful that God's given me the opportunity to show and share Jordyn with the boys and that although they won't get to grow up with her, they will and do feel her in their life.


Ok....rofl my boys are just trotted into the living room, being horses! LOL The cheerio's are "oats" Jacob just told me! LOL Time to go play with them!!! Bye



pixiedustnme said...

Hmmm - I think I'll go have some oats ;-)

deshelestraci said...

I am glad you are feeling better.  I am about the same.  I hate colds.  My girls are 2 years and 10 months apart and they get along just as your boys do.  I love it.  Your descriptions could be mine.  Especially playing puppy or horses.  And they are so nice to each other.  I love it.  The little one will call her sister's name all over the place if Emma is away or out of the room.

lv2trnscrb said...

I'm glad you are feeling better; thanks for reminding me how precious those little kids are when they play. Mine is now 16 and has traded Hot Wheels for ones he can drive. You are truly blessed; and the Lord has taken you through so much, but I can see your faith in your entries and how you live your life. He will never abandon you.

have a great day playing with your munchkins!


boeckelkcity said...

Hey Christy, thanks for your comments on my journal....and your opinion about my daughter's rash! I feel stupid thinking it could be something worse than a simple rash, but when it keeps coming back and they don't want to do anything about it, just kinda worries me.  I had a scare once with my 7 yr old, she developed this huge golf balls size tumor on the inside of her thigh. She had it for 2 months and I took her to all kinds of speacialists, wondering how much time I had with my baby and was just about to rip my hair out when the doctors found it to be benign, and that it was just a swollen lymph gland from a cat scratch!  They got me all worked up and freaked out for nothing, but still, I know you know what I mean when that thought even gets put into your head! Although I didn't lose her from it, there was 2 months there where I thought I would lose her, and that was the worst feeling I've ever had in my entire life! I can't begin to imagine what it would be like to lose a child and admire you for your strength to move on and great ability to see that your other children are so great! I truly admire you!! I am so sorry for your loss! You all have a beautiful guardian angel!

sangrialel said...

I love reading your journal.  It is so real!  

tillysweetchops said...

Hello nice to meet you.

What a touching entry this was. I was so sad to read of the loss of your beloved little Jordyn. It definately sounds as if your boys have a special link with her in some mysterious and magical way. Big hug to you all and I'm hoping that by the time you read this you won't be needing the bathroom so much and you'll be feeling a little better!

Thanks so much for visiting me and leaving your link. Will catch up with you soon. Take care.

Tilly x

lsk49rs said...

I cannot think of anything less fun to do than be sick - except recovering from knee replacement surgery.  And I have no idea why that just popped into my head.

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fairylaura said...

(((((HUGS))))) I hope you are fully recovered soon!!!! Kids are the best aren't they. They can make you feel love, scared, sad, happy, all at once. Take care.


robinngabster said...

How cute!  Boys will be boys!!!!  Robin

kiplingcrissy said...

I just wanted to say that I can understand how wonderful it is to watch your children play together so well. I have three kids myself and all three were each others best friends untill recently. My oldest is five now and VERY bossy so she plays with other kids more often now. But, Tyler(4) and Kasidee(2) are BEST friends. They love each other so much. People are so shocked to see them stop and hug and say I love my best friend. I think it is so sweet because if they can not get along with their siblings then how are they gonna get along with other kids in school or sunday school.
Also, I just want to say how sorry I am about your daughter. It sounds like she was/is an absolute blessing. I watched my aunt lose her 10 yearold son almost 4 years ago and the pain I felt was nothing compared to what she went through. I think it makes us love the precious kids we still have even more.
Thank you for writing, I really feel like I can relate to the day to day stuff you write about.  I will be praying for you. Not because I think you need it -Just because.         Cristina