Thursday, September 22, 2005

Blessed Beyond Worth

I am blessed beyond my worth. I'm a believer in Christ, there for know that I will spend eternity in Heaven. I am unworthy of his love, and I can't even describe the feelings when I think that he died for me.

Then I think of the blessing's he's given me. My husband. What can I say about him? He loves me so much more than I deserve most of the time. He's an amazing father. I truly could not have asked for a better man to be the father of my children. He's a hero! He's in the Army and loves his job. He believes in helping the Iraqi people to have the freedom they want. Most importantly, he loves Christ!

Then there's my children. God gave me Jordyn for 2 yrs 1 month and 8 precious days. There are so few words in the English language to describe how much I love this child and miss her, long for her in my arms, and thank GOD that he gave her to me for even 1 day. What GOD gave me, cancer will never be able to truly touch, because one day I'll be with her again. My boys are so precious to me. They are truly BOYS! If you have a boy, you know what I mean. Full of energy, orniness, rough-housing, playing in the dirt, sand, finding mud puddles and becoming as dirty as possible. If there's messy food to eat, it's the first thing they want! Just as boys should! LOL Jacob knows Jesus and loves him, he knows his sister and loves her, he adores his Daddy and they have a bond that I sit in awe of. Jackson's my "baby", at just 2 he's so smart, sweet, ornery, and wonderful. He's "MY BOY", yet loves that Daddy of his!

One of the sweetest sounds I hear everyday is "Daddy" when Chad comes home from work!

What did I do to deserve these amazing people? Why did GOD allow ME to find this man, have these children? I shouldn't question. I should just be thankful, even for the tense and stressful moments. I need to look at the good times and lock them in my heart and hold onto them and remind myself of eating ice cream in a German Ice Cream Shoppe, then going across the street to the little park with the fountain pond, running around, chasing each other. I love to hear my boys giggle...you know the giggle I'm talking about. It's those giggles of pure joy, of being carefree, fully loved, and truly happy. Running around, out of breath, looking at the pond, smelling the flowers. It's a good day, a good moment in time that I want and need to lock into my heart and never forget.

My dear friend, Emily talks about "Really living"...tonight I really lived with my boys and my blessings are too great to count. I am learning to "really live" from my children.

 

14 comments:

pixiedustnme said...

look at those great kids!  and you're right it is so easy to get wrapped up in every day life.  we should know more than most that tomorrow comes with no guarantees

fairylaura said...

OHHH WOW!! This is one great entry! Thank you very much for sharing it and the pics. (((((HUGS)))))


Laura

sangrialel said...

What a beautiful entry!  Lelly

bekahbutterflies said...

christy, i had never seen your wedding pictures before.  They are BEAUTIFUL!   I am so happy beyond words that you had an amazing time with your family last night.   Cherish the memories as i know you will.  I love you.

lv2trnscrb said...

hi, first time visiting your journal; your family is absolutely beautiful! I know you miss Jordyn and I can't imagine going through something like this, but it is so reassuring to know you will see her again and that she's with Jesus - no better place to be.

I, too, feel like you. I am truly unworthy of the love of Christ.

betty

missboogerhead said...

Howdy!  I just stopped by via Kelly.  Congrats on being picked by a guest editor.  You family sounds wonderful!  I too have an "all boy" boy, he's 7, and a girl that couldn't be any more of a princess if she tried so I deal with the war that comes between them!  :-)  But I wouldn't trade it for the world.
~Miss O

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hunybea4him said...

Wonderful description and congrates on being on the Editor's List this week!  I am always blessed to find another Christian Blog in J~Land.

Much Love,
Mary

rickysbunnie said...

You have a beautiful family, and you are truely blessed. Congrats on Editor's pick, it was well deserved.
<3 Amanda

angcrewswife said...

Not sure if I dropped in to say hi yet but I came across your journal a while back and wanted to do so. You have a beautiful family.  Stop by

ccancu said...

Congrats on being editor's pick . . .  lovely thoughts, you are one very HAPPY lady!  What a lovely attitude.
                                    Cyndy

http:journals.aol.com/cyndygee/TheRealWorldofcyndygee

trochez2 said...

As a mom of 4 grown children and an 11 year old, you've got the picture on being a mom.  These times with our kids are mere moments,they pass so quickly.  I'm thrilled you enjoy your boys even in their times of just being boys I have two so I know what those times are like.  Motherhood is a true blessing and you are enjoying every minute of it.  When they are grown your memories will always make you feel their love.  An added bonus is you will see your children become loving parents, like I have seen mine.  God Bless,  Rose    

jmacdougus said...

Well I am not sure how I got here, but I am glad I did. I first read your article on hair removal. It feels so good to laugh out loud. Then I read the above article and I cried a little. Where I come from, that's a good day. Laugh a little, cry a litte and love everyday.  Thanks, I hope I can return in kind some day.