Tuesday, May 8, 2007

15 more minutes

and this horrible day will be over. I hate this day more than any other. I wish I could just skip May 8, sleep it away...but being a mom doesn't allow that. My day was full of thoughts of Jordyn. I woke up not in a good mood, tired from my early wake up...the boys didn't wake up until after 8:30, I simply moved out to the couch and laid there like a zombie. The boys were arguing back and forth, mostly Jackson...he actually got up after Jacob and I and woke up in just an ugly mood...so he was told to either straighten up or go back to bed. He did straighten up some, but some ugliness persisted for the next couple hours.

We didn't do much. I did laundry, Jacob did his school work, the boys worked on their bedroom a little (and I mean very little..I just didn't have the energy to get in there with them and MAKE them do it).

I had to go to the commissary because we managed to run out of toilet paper...just one of those necessities of life that you can't live without! Then I had a FRG meeting tonight, oh yipee. It was my last meeting as FRG leader thank goodness. The meeting was fine. Chad didn't get home until after 7:30. I wasn't in the mood to cook so I went by BK (I really don't like that place, but we're limited). Not a good dinner at all, but we all got fed.

Tomorrow has to be a better day. It just has to be. Any day that doesn't mark the day my daughter dies, is  better than today.


candlejmr said...

I am at a loss for words.  I have no idea what you are going through and I am not going to pretend that I do.  All I can think of to say is how sorry I am...sorry you are so sad, sorry this is such a hard day for you, sorry your precious daughter had to die.  Please know that I am always here.  If there is anything I can do to help you thru this, please let me know.

((hugs)) and love,

deshelestraci said...

Here's to tomorrow.

lifesabench6 said...

I've been thinking of you today- God Bless and comfort you all.  Sorry Christy~  Love Carolyn

ksgal3133 said...

You were in my thoughts and prayers yesterday....and always! Matthew's 1 year anniversary is coming up and I just don't know...

I hope that today is better for you!


emabecmar said...

I'm so sorry you were so sad. I wish I could change the world and give your baby girl back, but I can't. All I can do is keep you in my prayers. ((((((hugs)))))))))