Tuesday, March 28, 2006

Prayers Please

I have a health issue that I need prayers for. I had my once a yr and  things came back. I have to go back to the dr in the larger military hospital about an hour away in 2 weeks. Chad will thankfully be here with me, so at the very least he'll be with the boys and it takes that stress off.

I've spent a good portion of my day in prayer and just talking to GOD and trying really hard to remind myself that all things from GOD are Good and that he loves me and no matter what happens he will not leave me or foresake me.  I admit it though, I'm scared. I go back and forth between feeling complete peace to  terrified. I need to continue to lean on Jesus and I ask that you pray for me that I DO continue to lean on Christ. I do feel him with me and when I felt I was about to fall apart he gave me tremendous peace and strength.

I know I only have a few more days and I'll have Chad here to lean on as well, I'm so thankful that if this is all happening it's right before Chad comes home and I'll be able to have his love and support here in the flesh. I think we can all agree that sometimes we just need arms to wrap around us and reassure us everything's going to be alright.

So...with that I'll share the rest of my day! I had a 9 am board meeting for PWOC (Protestant Women of the Chapel it's a bible study for women...army wide.). After that I came home and listened to the message saying I needed to go see my Dr and discuss the results. I took Jacob to Art Class, next Tuesday is his last one. He's really enjoyed it. I went to see my dr while he was in art class. Came home, fed the boys then had to take our cat to the vet because he once again has a UTI..AHHH! He's on liquid antibiotics, please pray that he does not fight me like he did those stinking pills that he was on just 3 weeks ago! On the way to the vet Pounce (cat) decided to urinate in his carrier! Yes that's right, so he was nice and disgusting  at the vets office. Thankfully we have a great vet who I really like. Odd thing is the cat that was in the room before us urinated in it's carrier as well. Got home told the boys to lay down for a nap, called a friend of mine who I'd called when I got the news about needing to talk to my dr and was praying for me and gave her an update. Gave Pounce a bath (we all know how fun cats are to bathe). It was actually more of a shower...he's at least clean now.  The boys got up Jack needed his diaper changed and in between me taking off his wet one and putting on a new one, he pee'd in the hall, Jacob decided that was disgusting and started gagging. Instead of going to the bathroom,  he went into the living room standing on my BRAND NEW RUG he puked on it, now he could have turned left just slightly and only hit the hardwood floor...but no the boy who'd drank red koolaid with lunch , puked on my BRAND NEW RUG. I was ticked at this point. I had to go to the store and get carpet cleaner and grabbed some lemon juice...praying one or the other works to get the red off the cream color sections of the rug. I took the boys to the park for a little bit to burn off some energy, now I'm making dinner while they're in the playroom.

I'm truly exhausted and caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror. I look haggard. I saw a friend at the commissary and she said "You look exhausted, are you ok". I knew I couldn't even get into it in there, because I felt like I was going to start crying and seriously who wants to cry in a grocery store.

So....please pray for me. I KNOW without a doubt that GOD is in control and all this is happening with HIS permission and all things from God are Good. My faith is NOT waivering at all. I just know that I could use the extra prayers.

Thanks and God Bless


chevyz71gurl74 said...

You are in my thoughts and prayers...
Be sure to keep us updated....so glad Chad will
be there for you during this time !

buggieboo1 said...

I found your j through another j...
I too am having health issues and I know what you mean by feeling at peace at one moment to being terrified the next!
I bleeive in the power of prayer also and God will get us through this!