I'd like to say that I'm feeling all happy and stuff, but I'm not. Not just because Chad's out in the field and once again missed my birthday and Valentine's Day (I'm use to that really). Before I get into that though...thanks for the birthday wishes. I had a nice birthday. The Women's Conference went great both Friday night and Saturday morning. After the conference my friend B and I with our kids walked down to the Bazaar that was going on over the weekend. We spent the whole day and evening together. We left B's home at 11:20 that night! Got home and had messages from Chad, my parents, and my nieces. Got sang two via the phone from Chad and my nieces, so that was sweet. B gave me a gift cert. to the day spa and she got me a little star from the bazaar. The next night the kids and I went back to her place after Awana, because she made a cake for me (plus after Church she took my boys...that was the best gift...I had a break).
So, Chad's been out in the field and still is. I've been an emotional mess. I know part of it is stuff that's coming up in our lives and I get like this, but there's just more to it. I'm also sick again. I haven't been sick so much in a season in so long. Since I lived with my smoking parents actually. A friend and I were talking about how we wonder just how damaged our bodies are from years of being exposed to those toxins and how much of it has late effects on our bodies, weaking our immune system, etc. Anyways...I have a cold. Losing my voice..again. My throat is killing me, I'm coughing up a lung, my head is hurting, eyes are sore and tired. I'm going to bed here in a few promise! :)
I wish I could find the words how I've been feeling. It's just so raw. Not knowing just who reads here, I'm hesitant to write too much too. This is my journal, but well there are just a lot of freaks in this world. I'm probably going to go private here soon. DO NOT email me right now if you want to be a reader, because I'm not doing it right now and my email box is full of enough. I'm probably going to wait through the weekend and then will put up the private post and collect names and go private a few days later.
Well...I'm off to bed. God Bless