I've been thinking about my journal. There are days I write in here not for me, but for others. People for the most part I don't know. I've found some wonderful people on here and feel I'm better because of them/you. What I have been thinking today as I read through others journals is that so many don't appear to be written for the author, but for others. I know I've been guilty of that, writing for other people instead of writing for me. Instead of really sharing what I want, because I never know how others will take it. Why do I need to be concerned with that? I shouldn't and I can't be. I can't say how different my journal is about to change, but I am going to start writing for me. Sharing my true feelings and thoughts. I am not out to offend or hurt anyone. I'm not out to debate my feelings or beliefs. I think my sidebar of me saying I'm a Christian states my beliefs right there. I'm a child of God. I believe the WHOLE bible. I do not think that I can just take the parts that I like and live by those. There's things in the bible that definately convict my heart and I have to start living by that as well. That's not easy and as a sinner it's something I do fight. I have to acknowledge that.
I will continue to share my family and the many ups and the few downs we go through. I will be sharing more of my heart here though. I haven't really done that. I will probably still remain some what reserved, because this is still a public journal and at this point I don't feel the need to go private. If you feel something I write is condemning you, all I can say is that maybe that's GOD. I can only say what I'll be writing and sharing will ultimately be about me and my thoughts and not aimed at anyone out here reading, unless stated before hand!
With that....I want to share my favorite bible verse
He tends his flock like a shepherd; He gathers the lambs in his arms and carries them close to his heart; he gently leads those that have young.
How I love that verse. That was first shared with me when Jordyn was being treated at Walter Reed. Another mom had told me how it was her favorite verse and how it comforted her from the day her daughter was dx with leukemia. It talks about how God holds us close to him, he gathers the young, our children. He gently leads me. ME. He loves me, he loves parents and gently is leading us. He is our shephard and he gave us the awesome responsibility to guide and lead our children, which of course is to guide them to him. This verse gives me so much comfort. Over 7 yrs ago this verse was shared with me and I've loved it. About 3 yrs ago a friend of mine, Emily-Really Living
shared it with me again. It's my verse. When I feel lost, sad, in need of comfort...I read it. When I feel joy, I read it. I think every mother should read this verse, highlight it in her bible, write it down on paper, memorize it, tape it up on her mirrors, kitchen, make a book mark out of it, and read it daily...remind herself that she in not alone in this journey of parenting. God is leading us, those of us who have young! Isn't that just such a comfort? To know he understands we need that guidance, that help. He knows we need him.
Oh how I love my Jesus. He is precious and wonderful. He loves us.