Wednesday, July 28, 2004


Well this is my first entry. I am actually very tired and will soon be going to sleep. I've been pretty stressed lately. I've always believed that we allow people to hurt us, that we control that, but honestly it's hard to keep that control when you're the one being hurt.

I recently found that people who I truly believed to be people who cared about me, do not. It's sad to see friendly relationships end, but I had to do what was best for me, my family, and most of all my sanity. I am just a person who loves the LORD and can only take so much.

I am not the most tolerant person. I am very intollerant of people putting my husband and his job down. He's in the Army and he's over there fighting this war. He believes in what we are doing. I am sick and tired of people who only watch CNN, etc and think they KNOW the truth. They know nothing. They are ignorant and I'd rather slap them than have to read their idiotic posts and emails.

I know that paragraph did not sound like a good Christian woman at all. :( I love the Lord and strive to walk the life he has given me and make him proud. I know that all too often, well actually far too often I fail at this walk miserably.

This is really going to be a place for me to just share my thoughts, views, opinions, etc. I may just totally blow off steam here one day and the next have only wonderful things to talk about.

I am going to end now. I'm tired and it's time to go to bed.


loribelle17 said...

     Don't ever let anyone make you feel like you are anyone other than what you strive to be. You are one of the strongest women I know. You are going through things that i could never imagine going through. You hold your head up high and be proud of your wonderful husband who is fighting this fight for our childrens future, and maybe someday these people putting this war down will take a good long look and realize they are in a safer world because of it. Right now they are selfish and looking at it as "hey this war is doing nothing for me", well they are wrong. I love you Christy, you are a great woman , be proud. XOXO Lori

milmomrrw said...

Christy,   Thank you for sharing your thoughts with me.   You are always in my prayers, as are "the Guys" in your life.   (((((((Christy))))))))))
I love you.

newhope03 said...

I love you, Christy!!

I so totally agree about how it's hard to not feel hurt when the pain is coming from those we love and whom we thought loved us.  Matt keeps telling me that the "world" "hates" me because it hated Jesus first.  Anything that resembles Him to someone who does not know Him will be resented.  We have to be strong and faithful to our God, just as He is to us.  You are a wonderful woman of Christ.  The mere fact that you struggle just shows that you are indeed human and you do fall, but you always try to do better today than you did yesterday.  God wants you to be just like Jesus, but it's going to take a lot of fires to melt us down before He can mold us into that form.  He's using you along the way and though it's not easy and often painful, this is all part of the plan.  God walks this road before you, clearing your path.  Don't let go of His mighty hand and you'll see all the glorious wonders He has to share with you!  

In His grace,
Emily :)