Sweet little boys

About 20 minutes ago Jack woke up, 2 yrs old and up at after 10 pm is not exactly a "good" thing. We have a door that seperates a VERY small/short hall way that has a door that seperates the living/dining room from the bedrooms and bathrooms (and that hall way seperates the bedrooms with the bathroom being at the end of this TINY hall and in the middle of the bedrooms..I'll take a picture this week! LOL) So anyways, he opens the door and says "Daddy" in a very tired little 2 yr old voice (if you're a momma you know that sweet voice). I was "here" sitting with my back to the door so I don't think he saw me, as he tumbled over to his Daddy and laid in his lap. Chad asked him what was wrong but he said nothing, then he kind of sat up and started watching football with Dad! I figured he was thirsty and brought him his water cup, (Momma was right!) and of course got the "Mommy" with arms lifted up. So of course I took him and took him back to bed. I layed him down and he grabbed my neck. The problem with laying with my boys is that they have the most comfortable mattress's created I think! It's VERY hard to NOT fall asleep on them, so when I do lay down with the boys I have to make it quick or else I'll be out like a light! LOL I layed with him and he started doing something that he's slowly becoming famous for in our household...he rolled his eyes back, and then gave the sweetest, yet orneriest smile! I couldn't help but smile and give a little giggle (I'm also getting sick again, so coughing was also added in there with the giggle). He continued to do it, and finally I could hold it in no longer and gave a good hard laugh, which only made him do it more and smile WIDER! Ummm it's 10:30 pm kid, quit making me laugh! So to be the responsible mommy, I gave him his cup of water and one of his teddy bears, told him that Mommy was going to go back out, but that he could go back to sleep. He gave me another of his famous eye rolls and smiles and then closed his eyes.

He's a funny little boy, so precious, and beautiful. It's fun watching him grow. There are days I say outloud "what happened to my sweet baby boy"..then I get nights like this and see he's still there, he's just hiding a little deeper.

So, with that I'll share something about my other precious little man! Jacob, my very smart and handsome 4 yr old. This morning at church, we were singing and oh was I feeling the songs, we sang some really great ones and I was swaying and singing withmy eyes closed (I do give myself credit that I do actually have a good singing voice too). I was pretty well belting it out and I feel Jacob slip his hand into mine, and start swaying and singing his little heart out as well. (He's his momma's boy in this aspect for sure!). Then we're asked to sit and the worship team leader goes to the piano (he normally plays the guitar with lead vocals) and starts playing "THE SONG", it's one of my FAVORITE songs and truly is one of those that gets to me almost everytime...."Who Am I" by Casting Crowns (lyrics will be at the end of this post) I wasn't blubbering, but the tears were streaming. There were no words desplayed on the wall for this song, yet almost everyone in the congregation was singing along, even my sweet Jacob, who whispered at the end.."Mommy I love that song and when I face Jesus I think I'll fall on my knee's". Oh my goodness how precious and beautiful is that???? I know! The next song was "I Can Only Imagine"..that was the end of our worship/singing and I saw many tears flowing (mine included).

Often times I find myself just singing the words, but not listening to the song. There are times I get annoyed with Jacob for wanting my attention during worship, because I love singing, yet I love this child far more than a song that isn't even touching my soul. Today, God grabbed ahold of me. He gave me this precious little boy who loves the Lord so much and loves me so much (and his daddy). He has allowed me to share a joy with him and to witness a gift that GOD has also given him, a beautiful voice when it comes to singing. As we swayed this morning, I felt more like we were one and together we were in the presence of the Lord and those who love and adore him. There was an electicity and calmness in the air at once. I felt like I could almost feel others giving it up and giving it to God. Letting him work things out.

Was it the songs, no, not really. It was GOD, but he let those songs strike a cord in US to really feel HIM. Sometimes as a mom I get so caught up in the daily duties of being a mom that I forget the most important job of being a mom...teaching my children about GOD and being a Godly mother to them. Showing them my tender side more is something I strive for everyday. Showing them my devotion to Jesus, and showing them to spend time in the word everyday. Today, I did a much better job at showing that side. Tomorrow, I'm going to make the effort. I want to keep making that effort, until it's not longer making an effort, it's just part of me, and there will be no "thinking" about it, it just will be.

Here's those lyrics btw :)

Artist:  Casting crowns
Song: Who am I lyrics

Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt,
Who am I?
That the Bright and Morning Star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wandering heart,

Not because of who I am,
But because of what You've done,
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who You are,

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean (ocean),
A vapor in the wind,
Still You hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling,
And You've told me who I am..
I am Yours.

Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin,
Would look on me with love,
and watch me rise again,
Who am I?
That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me,

Not because of who I am,
But because of what You've done,
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who You are,

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean (ocean),
A vapor in the wind,
Still You hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling,
And You've told me who I am...
I am Yours, I am Yours.

I am Yours,
Whom shall I fear?
Whom shall I fear?
'Cause I am Yours,
I am Yours.