Feeling a little better

Well, I'm not fully recovered, but I'm not feeling the need to be in the bathroom all the time or just laying on the couch feeling like my stomach was going to explode. The boys definately watched too much tv yesterday morning, that's a definate perk for them when Mommy's sick and just too exhausted to do anything with them. Thankfully Chad was home by 1 yesterday afternoon. I did have to make them lunch, which I went above and beyond on...ravioli's rofl!! yeah..open the can, dump, heat up, serve...lol....I got them put in bed for their nap, spent some quality time in my bathroom, Chad came home and got the boys to stop rough-housing (imagine a 2 and 4 yr old rough-housing knowing full and well Mommy was ummm busy! LOL)

Ok, so my real purpose of writing this...how much fun my boys are, especially Jack at this moment. His imagination is really exploding onto the scene you could say! Like I said he's 2 and this is when it really hits. Last night he found the blocks, and made something...well it was a train! :) He started walking around saying "choo-choo" he did this for at least a half-hour! It was so fun watching his imagination really going. This morning the boys were playing, Jacob went and got his Bob the Builder blanket that my mom had made him, got the couch pillows, put everything on the floor, Jacob layed under his blanket, layed on one of the pillows and said "come here puppy", Jack came over barking, tongue hanging out, being a puppy! ROFL! They were playing and giggling. It's so much fun to watch 1. my children play together. 2. love one another, 3 to see their imagination growing and constantly expanding.

I know how lucky I am, when I talk to some friends who's kids are about the same age gap and they don't play as well together. People always seem a little shocked that they get along so well with each other. They are truly best friends. If Jacob is out of Jack's sight and he doesn't know where he is, he comes to ask where "baabup" (that's how he says Jacob) is and will then proceed to walk through the apt calling his name! LOL If Jack's somewhere unknown to Jacob, he's searching for him. Now don't get me wrong, the argue and have little tiff's, but normally with in 1 minute they are back to playing like nothing again!

I love watching my boys play together, I think it's one of GOD's greatest gift to give your child a sibling. It was wonderful when it was JUST Jordyn (ok so it was wonderful just having Jordyn alive...) and it was wonderful when it was JUST Jacob. I had no idea how wonderful it would be to see Jacob be a big brother. He was meant to have siblings. Last night he came up to me and said "mommy, I miss Jordyn". Now for those new here or just don't know, I found out I was pregnant with Jacob 8 days AFTER Jordyn died. He was NOT planned by any means and the pregnancy was emotionally hard, well it was awful. I'd NEVER and I mean NEVER suggest anyone get pregnant in the first year after losing a child. You NEED time to grieve. Letting yourself be selfish, etc. That was not the case for me, there I was pregnant. My husband and I were shocked to say the least. I wanted my little girl, wasn't ready for another child. The whole pregnancy I was scared out of my mind that I wouldn't be able to love him. When he was born and I heard that cry, all those fears left, because it was immediate, I loved that child! Anyways, I believe with all my heart that Jacob has a bond with his sister, it's unexplainable really, but so many times he's talked about Jordyn, misses her, wants her here with him, and genuinely loves her. I know they knew each other in Heaven while he was growing in me. Jack is starting to learn and recognize Jordyn, most the time when he see's her picture he calls her Jacob (of course when he see's himself in the mirror or a picture of himself he calls himself Jacob too! LOL)...but when I correct him and tell him "No, that's Jordyn not Jacob" he will say "oh! Jordyn" and normally gives the picture a kiss! :) I'm thankful that God's given me the opportunity to show and share Jordyn with the boys and that although they won't get to grow up with her, they will and do feel her in their life.

 

Ok....rofl my boys are just trotted into the living room, being horses! LOL The cheerio's are "oats" Jacob just told me! LOL Time to go play with them!!! Bye