SICK

I had to get on here and clear out some emails so my mailbox wouldn't remain full, yes I know insane as it is with a limit of 1000, it was full when I got on here. I have this terrible habit of saving emails, thinking I'll go back to them, but rarely if ever do. I NEED to just delete it all, but not tonight.

If you'd say a prayer for me. I'm not positive what I have. This morning when I got up at 7, moved out to the livingroom  and was laying on the loveseat and just could not stop shivering, and was covered with 3 blankets. I took my temp and it was 102. About 10 am I started sweating buckets and thought maybe my fever was finally breaking, no such luck. I have just horrible all day, fought a migraine all day as well. Then add on the sinus infection I have, and no I have not been able to get into the dr for it either, and I'm just not dragging 3 kids to the ER with me over it. This evening Emma and I took a bath together, she's been fussy all day, I think she feels fine honestly, just a reaction to Mommy not being able to hold her as much as she normally does. She absolutely loved the bath, as she always does, but it wasn't so relaxing for me...trying to keep her sitting up and keeping her toys right by her, plus I was dealing with chills while in the tub. The boys were very helpful today, well Jacob was with Emma especially. He did all he could to keep her entertained throughout the day and evening. I am wanting to get him something special for being such a great brother and helper to me.

Chad comes home on Tuesday. Oh I can not wait! I miss him so much and have not talked to him in days. I miss hearing his voice. I am blessed with my husband. He's a great man who loves me and adores me, far more than I deserve. He puts up with a lot from me, and then turns around and gives me even more! He's an excellent father. If I could have looked at the future and picked a Daddy for my children, it would have been him.

I am praying I feel better tomorrow. I really need/want to get our bedroom cleaned up. I have tons of clothes to put away, I need to vaccuum, want to get rid of things that are nothing but clutter, and make it more peaceful. I am hoping before he leaves we can paint the room. I plan on getting us new bedding once he's deployed and just making our room a place to rest and feel relaxed...it's absolutely NOT that. My mother would absolutely be aghast if she saw my room right now! LOL :) Anyways, I have things I really want to do so I NEED to feel better, plus it's really hard being a Momma when you can barely lift your head up at times throughout the day.

 

Ok thank you for the prayers. I'm going to take another bath here just me alone, and then off to bed.

Ready

Today has been one of those days I just really miss Chad. It's silly really because he's only out in the field, yet I guess it's because I KNOW what's coming. I know he's leaving for 15 months and I'm not ready for him to leave.  I'm looking forward to his return in early March. I can say this field problem has felt like forever. Normally they go pretty quickly, but I think that since I've been sick almost the whole time he's been gone and at least one of the kids has been battling something too, it's just made it feel longer. Just a little over a week and he'll be home again thankfully!

 

My mom called me tonight to tell me she got all my birthday gifts finished and they're going out to the mail on Monday. She has an embroidary machine and so she makes tons of awesome things. I am getting a couple shirts and then a couple framed items, one being one that has "Recipe for an Army Wife", she actually started crying as she was reading to me what it said! Let me tell you first off that in itself is really huge. My mom has never really gotten what it is to be a military spouse. She's always tried to compare the 3 yrs my dad had a job where he traveled as similar. There were times he'd be gone for a week or two at a time, but reality is he was never off in a war zone! I still don't think she "Gets" it, and part of it is because she's not a military wife, never has been, never will be...the other part is she just simply does not WANT to get it. Let me say that Chad and I could not be more opposite from my parents! We're both very conservative, Republican's....mine are moderates and that's being kind and although they both say they're "idependent" and vote for who they like the best no matter what party, the reality is they're Democrats. The ONLY time I've known them to vote Republican is for the local Sherrif election! THE ONLY TIME! They've never been big in the whole "support your troops" thing. My brother was in the Army years ago, but even if he were still in, I don't really see them being much different. When Chad deploys he will get a card here and there, some emails, maybe one or two care packages (aks birthday and Christmas gifts!). That's it (oh and his family is just as bad, if not worse!!)...but anyways back to my point, my mom's never acted like the fact that we're an Army family is anything out of the ordinary, etc...it's just simply our life. While it is just that, our life is anything but ordinary at times! Like deployments! We're about to embark on our 5th deployment. That's no small feat. So anyways, the point that my mom actually made something that has anything to truly do with our life, is HUGE to me. The fact that she got emotional, is even bigger. When I get the gifts, I'll take pictures and show them off! :)

I can't remember if I wrote about it or not, but basketball is over! Yippee!! Jacob did not have a good coach this year. He was young, single, inconsiderate, and just got on my last nerve. He didn't show up to 2 of their practices and never informed anyone! He also argued with another parent/friend over the snack issue, which in the grand scheme of life, not a big deal...but in pee wee basketball HUGE! LOL He had to be put into his place over the snack thing. He also was caught lying, by me and that just was really the clincher of the season. I still had Jacob thank him for coaching. Baseball starts up next month, we already know who his coach will be so it'll be better that way! Chad was Jackson's coach, so no complaining there! LOL Well other than about our child who decided he really didn't want to play, only wanted the jersey! LOL To be 4 I tell you! LOL Both boys are playing baseball so hopefully it all goes well!

Emma's great. She's still not fully crawling, although she can get anywhere she wants with her little army crawl, lunge thing she does and she's now discovered how to crawl up us when we're sitting on the floor! She did it to Jacob today and he was freaking out! She crawls up you and then gets herself into the standing position. She's so tiny, she just does not look like she has any business doing all the things she's doing. She's my smallest baby yet in height and weight! I can't believe she's 6 1/2 months old. Where has the time gone? It's truly just flown by.

I'm including pictures, some are from Valentine's Day, some are from a day we went out the the lake, etc.

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Whisker's is Home!

I called the Vets office first thing this morning to see if anyone had informed them they either had her or brought her in, and no one had contacted them. They took my info though and I described what Whisker's looks like and they said they'd call if she was  brought in or called they found/had her. So then I told Chad to go knock on our neighbors doors, don't ask me why I did not do this last night, but I didn't. So he did and our 1st floor neighbor had found her! They had a friend over and they took her home with them last night. They had asked my 2nd floor neighbor and he told them we didn't have any pets, which is why they didn't bother knocking on our door! :) So 1st floor neighbor called their friend and over lunch my 1st floor neighbor (the husband) and their friend (soldier) brought her home! The guy who kept her overnight said she scared their dog! ROFL! I said "yes, she beats up our other cat" and he said he could believe it, she's a toughy! LOL!

The boys both said they were so happy she's home and Jacob said he was trying not to cry, so they're not heartless boys! LOL Whew! I'm so relieved that she's home and she's ate, and actually now that I look at her, she's tracking down Pounce, I'm sure to start a fight. Speaking of Pounce he was so happy she was gone last night! ROFL He was actualy social!

Well, I'm finishing up lunch! Thanks for all the kind words so many of you gave!

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Private

I'm private, so you may need to reset your alerts, but it's official. If you're here it's because 1 you're a good friend or I'm giving you a chance. If you don't leave at least a few comments so I can get to know you in the next couple weeks, I'll be removing you (if I don't know you that is). Also if you have a journal, leave me a link and I'll go visit.

I am going to be more open now that I'm private, will share more personal things, and more pictures of my babies.

God Bless

Last Entry before going Private

So tomorrow morning (Germany morning) I'm going private, so leave me a comment if you want to remain a reader. There's a few of you that I do not know, you've never commented, and I don't know you from anywhere else, so I am debating on you. It's nothing so much against you persay other than I just simply don't know you...so if you do come along, my request is that you comment from time to time, let me know who's reading. Honestly it freaks me out a bit to think I have people reading and looking at my pictures who never comment, even once. I do get it, there's been journals in the past that I've read and never really commented, but if I'm going to "let you in" let me know who you are ok!?! Then there's some friends ;) who read and never say a flippin' word and freak me out because I didn't even know you knew I was here! LOL (CoughMelissaCough) ROFL! Love ya girl!!

 

Anyways it's been a crazy day. Chad called, twice today actually which was great. I don't know if we'll get to talk to him again before he comes home from the field, he said he'll try, but we'll see. Also Whisker's, Santa's present...she got out. I have been doing laundry all day and and at one point the door got left open and she must have gotten out. I'm so absolutely sad over this, the boys seem to care less, which really ticks me off, but maybe they're just being optimistic and reality hasn't set in that she may not come back. We looked up and down the apt building stairwell, in the basement, and of course I've called for her outside. She is chipped, but I hadn't went to the VETS to update everything, but my hope is she is either hanging around outside tomorrow, or she gets taken into the VETS office and they let me come and get her. B knows she's missing, so she said in the morning when she takes her son to school they'll be looking out for her. PLEASE will you all pray that she comes back. I really love this cat. She actually will cuddle with me, plays with toys, lets the kids touch her, etc. If she'd just get along with Pounce she'd be perfect. I'm really hopeful that she returns. I'm going to knock on my neighbors doors tomorrow too and see if they happened to get her.

Well, I need to get to bed soon...;)

I've done so good this week at going to bed earlier and I've actually been falling asleep at a decent time, which is amazing in and of itself. I want to stay in this habit so when Chad comes home I'm going to bed not too long after him. He'd appreciate it I know.

Going Private

Ok so I've decided to go private. Mostly because of all the pictures I share here of my children, and just really feel it's time. So if you want to keep being a reader email me or leave a comment. I'll leave it public until Friday or Saturday morning. The deployment journal will be public, but no names other than mine and Chad's will be used and no pictures of the kids there ever.

If you're a lurker and haven't commented, leave me one or email me and I may let you remain with me! :) I'm a pretty nice girl most of the time!

Monday

Today we had a great day. We went to this place called Tuckerland's. They have these totally enclosed tramploline's, go carts, rock/wall climbing, ball houses, things to climb through, a baby area, pedal cars, tractors, etc, basketball and soccer area, oh and freakishly fast slides! The kids had been before, Chad took them (the day after we returned from Venice), but Emma and I had stayed home, since I couldn't bare to put her back in her hated carseat! LOL It opened at 2 and around 6. The kids ran themselves ragged. They had so much fun, and that includes Emma! We went with my friend B and her 2 kids. When we got home I read the kids a story and they went to bed. No talking, just went straight to bed! They were asleep before 8 pm! That may be a new record! LOL This week is filled with a couple different drs apts, PWOC, a baby shower, and Hospitality House.

Basketball is over with!!!! I admit I'm totally thrilled that it is. It went I guess well over all, just did not care for Jacob's coach. He was young, single, and very inexperienced. I've NEVER complained about a coach (even when it wasn't Chad! LOL) but this guy just simply didn't show up to 2 of the practices and on the 2nd one I was standing there with one of our Sports guys called him and the next night at the game he totally lied. He got called out, but that in itself just speaks volumes. I don't want someone who can't just own up and admit he made a mistake...having influence over my child. It's over though and I'm glad. Next up is baseball. We already know how the boys coach will be...my friend and Chad is going to be her assistant! Chad will leave before the season is completely over, but this still lets Chad coach which he enjoys, while not having to worry about being there when it's time for him to leave, plus we get a coach's discount and hey every little bit we can save I'm all for! I'm going tomorrow to sign the kids up for that!

Chad's out of contact for the next 2 weeks. It stinks, but the Battalion Commander said no cell phone use for these next 2 weeks. It stinks, but we'll suck it up. It'll be good preperation I suppose. It does annoy me though. The reality is, they're going to be gone for 15 months with limited contact, so when they're less than 2 hours drive from us, let us at least be able to recieve a phone call from our soldier to tell us hi when they DO have downtime. I don't expect a phone call during training, that's unnecessary and dangerous possibly, and distracting. But it's not like they're going 24 hrs, they get down time to eat and sleep so if they want to use some of their personal time to call home and talk to the kids and/or wife/husband let them. I am selfish and want to hear my husband's voice everyday, if possible. The fact is my kids, well Jackson just does not understand why he can't call Daddy, when he's just in the field. I tell him the truth, that Daddy's boss said no one can call home. He asked me "Does that mean he can't call home either"? "I told him, it better!". ;)

Tomorrow isn't too busy  outside of the home. Jacob has a drs apt. I think his allergies are messing with him, so hopefully they can get him on some meds and get that sorted out. Otherwise it'll be cleaning and laundry here! Oh the good times never end I tell you! LOL